Green eyed lady, lovely lady.

There is something incredible about envy. People can spend their entire lives being envious. Envious of someone, something, anything, anyone, everything, and everyone. I'm guilty of this myself (personally, I blame my envy on my green eyes...green eyed monster?) I constantly compare myself to everyone else and think about what I don't have or what I don't have GOING for me. I started thinking about what jealously does to me because of a statement made by someone who doesn't even know me. A person, who has never met me before, who has only heard about my positive attributes, who can only judge my appearance based upon very few facebook pictures, stated that they thought I would be thin. My immediate reaction was to say something snarky and defensive, but then, I thought about this statement. Attacking another person's appearance is the simplest way to insult someone. But, calling someone fat doesn't make you skinny...(Cady Heron). Lately, I've been working on my own feelings of jealousy. It's kind of...refreshing? I feel like I've been given this brand new opportunity to fix everything that has been wrong and to set it all straight. The best thing that I can do for myself is focus less on everyone else. Sure, you should put other's first...sometimes...but if you do that ALL the time, you lose yourself. And not lose yourself in the Eminem way, but you put so much energy into being jealous of or angry at or happy for or frustrated with another person, that you completely lose track of the person you ACTUALLY are becoming. 

I feel like my life is turning out like a Lifetime made for TV Movie. Except without all of the REALLY terrible things, like teen pregnancy.