Some time, no post. A lot has happened since school let out. It's been a ridiculous deluge of emotions and events. I know I have worked extremely hard over the past month or so on my path to become completely contended with myself but sometimes I look in the mirror and have very little satisfaction. I'm fearful of losing my will power and over this summer. I just have to realize that it's important to be confident in myself and my success so far.
I know my family loves and supports me no matter what, but those people can eat! They eat the WORST kinds of food at WORST times of the day. Kenny and Rebecca now have a kegerator. How destructive is that!! I know, I should have more willpower, but I just can't resist beer! Beer is too delicious! I ran 4 miles 4 days that week and it felt amazing. I never thought I'd be able to run that far. It was one of the best feelings EVER. I'm so excited to see the rest of my body take shape. My arms are starting to look RIPPED and my legs are looking lean and muscular. Sue keeps telling me that if I keep on a correct diet, it will shred the fat and my muscles will all be there when the fat is gone. Maybe I'm being impatient....BUT I JUST WANT IT SO BAD.
Reinventing myself has been one of the best things I have ever done. I am hoping that as my body changes my mentality will keep changing as well. I've done so much thinking over the past month and I'm starting to realize how important it is to have faith in yourself. I just have to keep on the same path. And go day by day. Just one day at a time.
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
The Queen of California is stepping down.
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!
The thing that I am MOST excited about is the fact that in two months I'll be back in school with a completely new outlook, lifestyle, and with tons of new ideas and plans. I probably won't do much "working" over the summer, BUT I will be starting next year in a completely different place than I started this past school year. The check out process is tedious to say the least. But it is thrilling to know how clean my rooms will be when I get back in July.
I have a feeling that this summer will be a new adventure. I registered for my first Triathlon. It's a sprint, so it is a good introduction into the race scene. It's a 400M swim, 11 mile bike, and 3 mile run. I am SO excited to do the training for this event!!! I have come so far in the past few months. I have lost 42 pounds and have lost 24+ inches from all over my body. It's really incredible to watch my body mold into this completely different form. I know that the path I am currently is absolutely headed in the right direction. It's taken me 24 years to finally fall into myself. It was all kind of an accident...I didn't plan for any of what is happening to me. I did plan, however, to be overweight for my entire life and completely dissatisfied with my appearance. Now, don't get me wrong, you should love yourself no matter what your size. But for some of us, we need to make a drastic change to REALLY fall in love. And the things that I have been seeing, I'm finally learning what true love is! I know, it's super cheesy, but it's all true. I am falling in love with myself. And you know, it's truly an remarkable feeling.
We all struggle at some point in our lives but that struggle helps you appreciate how beautiful life can be. If we didn't have to suffer and experience pain, what would we be? Virtually empty. Those moments of despair are necessary so that we all can keep feeling. There are still so many experiences out there for me to have and I am so excited to discover the rest of my life.
The thing that I am MOST excited about is the fact that in two months I'll be back in school with a completely new outlook, lifestyle, and with tons of new ideas and plans. I probably won't do much "working" over the summer, BUT I will be starting next year in a completely different place than I started this past school year. The check out process is tedious to say the least. But it is thrilling to know how clean my rooms will be when I get back in July.
I have a feeling that this summer will be a new adventure. I registered for my first Triathlon. It's a sprint, so it is a good introduction into the race scene. It's a 400M swim, 11 mile bike, and 3 mile run. I am SO excited to do the training for this event!!! I have come so far in the past few months. I have lost 42 pounds and have lost 24+ inches from all over my body. It's really incredible to watch my body mold into this completely different form. I know that the path I am currently is absolutely headed in the right direction. It's taken me 24 years to finally fall into myself. It was all kind of an accident...I didn't plan for any of what is happening to me. I did plan, however, to be overweight for my entire life and completely dissatisfied with my appearance. Now, don't get me wrong, you should love yourself no matter what your size. But for some of us, we need to make a drastic change to REALLY fall in love. And the things that I have been seeing, I'm finally learning what true love is! I know, it's super cheesy, but it's all true. I am falling in love with myself. And you know, it's truly an remarkable feeling.
We all struggle at some point in our lives but that struggle helps you appreciate how beautiful life can be. If we didn't have to suffer and experience pain, what would we be? Virtually empty. Those moments of despair are necessary so that we all can keep feeling. There are still so many experiences out there for me to have and I am so excited to discover the rest of my life.
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